In other words:
Jesus said in John 10:10 "I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."
This summer has been quite the journey…quite the adventure. It is interesting I say that after returning from a foreign contry where I bathed in rivers, rode donkeys, spoke a different language, and was far from anything familiar for 4 months. Yes- that was a journey-but this summer was an adventure in itself.
It was, and still is, an adventure of putting the pieces back together. There is a reason I didn’t write a lot about what I was thinking this summer- mostly because I had no idea what I was thinking. Everything I ever believed was questioned in Costa Rica. I had to seriously wrestle with everything I was once so confident in- and things I always promised myself were non-negotiables.
For example- Jesus. I educated myself to the point that I began seriously questioning whether Jesus really is the only way. One of those foundational things we shouldn’t DARE question…right? But I did- and that is just one example. While I never thought for a second about walking away from my faith all together- I had some serious wrestling to do. If I am honest- I still have a lot to work through- a lot of pieces to put back together. It’s part of the adventure that isn’t always fun- but I think this is part of the adventure that makes me stronger for what comes next.
In a time when I don’t know much about anything…and I am not quite sure about what I believe…here is what I know…and this is sometimes the ONLY thing I can say with confidence: My life is very full. I have been given life. Not just breathing oxygen in and out type of life because every human can do that…but REAL life- FULL life- a life that makes me loose my breath sometimes because I couldn’t have dreamed of this. That is all I know. And I am starting to realize maybe that is how Jesus wants me to find him again- through life and life to the fullest.
Life is an adventure for me. I wouldn’t want it any other way.
